Last Year of University

So, here we are... The last step of the general education system, and yet I feel as if my academic mind and interest has disappeared. 

In first year, I found essays with ease, I had no worries understanding theories and articles. Now I've reached the latter end, and I find myself struggling to understand what a load of words are trying to tell me! 

I've also come across a feeling at the worst possible time that I've fallen out of love with films and television. It seems as if 90% have being sucked up into being slow and boring. My creative engine has gone. My creative motivation has gone. Especially when you think about what the end goal may be, probably a low end, depressing and underpaid job, instead of the dreams of being on set or post production. 

And whilst all of this academic stuff is going on, I'm unemployed and according to the HMRC, I don't exist.